Sunday, January 1, 2012
Look Back, Look Forward
Looking back: This year brought me lots of adventures: concerts, the circus, 3 months in Australia, 3 new jobs, a ton of new friends... it also brought me lots of challenges: money issues, health issues, relationship issues. But looking back I can see how each of those things shaped me and made me into the person I am tonight, right now. I have learned so much this year- new ways of thinking that I know will help me progress, new insights to myself, recognizing more of my strengths and weaknesses. I feel so blessed tonight, looking back over the past 365 days, but there are still many things I want to change- new things to see and do, new people to meet, and new ways to become a little more the woman God wants me to be. So what do I want to see, do, and try this new year?
I want to invest in my health more-time, money, energy, whatever it takes for me to be truly healthy and happy. I want to invest in my dreams more- write, paint, create anything and everything I can, and not let feelings of fear, doubt, and negativity hold me back. I want to use my talents and gifts to help those around me, enrich their lives, uplift people, and make the world a more beautiful place. I want to build upon the skills I developed this past year, fine tune the basic good habits that give me strength and peace. And last but not least, I want to have more courage- courage to open my heart to people, courage to try new things, courage to fail sometimes, courage to be myself, courage to rise to any challenge that may arise.
I am reminded tonight of "Up," an incredibly touching and beautiful movie (if you haven't seen it yet, please do!) In the movie, 78 year old widower Carl Fredricksen finally embarks on an adventure he's been wanting to take his whole life. He spends a lot of time looking back over his life- meeting the little girl he would later fall in love with, building a life together, living through disappointments and joys, losing her. He goes on an amazing adventure with tagalong boyscout Russell, and comes to realize that though one phase of his life is over, he still has many more adventures ahead of him. At one point he has to empty things from his house so that he can continue to travel, which reminds me of an analogy from Amy Parmenter, who says that when we are making transitions or seeking to change our lives, we need to look at it as embarking on a journey. We need to "pack a suitcase," carefully considering what supplies (attitudes, behaviors, beliefs, habits) will help us, and what will weigh us down and hold us back. And then we need to consider what supplies we don't have that we should have to help us on our journey, and focus on acquiring them.
What are you unpacking at the end of this crazy year? And what new things will you choose to take with you into 2012?